Some say Motherhood may be a curse or a blessing. For me, motherhood came late. Infact, it was a miracle and a blessing. I was suffering from hormonal imbalance during my early 20's. I went through a string of doctors. When I came to UAE on 2002, I was again stricken with my sickness and diagnosed with polycycstic right and left ovaries. I went through three doctors who had all different diagnosis. When I got married, I did not expect to get pregnant. The doctor told me that I had a cervical tumor and to make matters worst I was not ovulating. I was losing hope. My doctor then suggested that I took medication to ovulate but the timing wasn't right. My husband had to leave and visit his family so I forgot about the medication for I thought it was useless to buy it that time. Then, a miracle happened. After two months, I started having my usual delays and I took it as a normal occurence. One week then another, after another week I asked my husband to buy me a pregnancy kit. Seeing the positive sign appear made me elated.
I was beaming from ear to ear as I told my husband. I was 41 years old. I took constant check-ups to make sure everything was fine.
I kept on talking to my baby to held on tightly because I was still working hard that time, climbing stairs and ladders ( I was painting a wall to wall mural at one of the game centers in Al ain). I would listen to love songs of a Mother to her baby and cry happily as I talk to my unborn child. I started a diary for my baby so that when he/she grows up s/he may read what I felt as I was carrying he/r.
That was six years ago. Now, I have a wonderful son. My little treasure. A Miracle sent by God. Whoever says motherhood is a curse, isn't ready for motherhood. Yes, being a mother is challenging. I always go through each day asking myself if I'm bringing up my son properly or correctly. I pray day to day asking God to guide me to do the right thing. I read parenting articles. Maybe I worry too much. But there's never too much in raising a child. There is nothing as too much love. I love my son in the way I think it should be. He isn't spoilled and he's not too constricted. I talk to him as a small adult. I discuss matters with him, what are the consequences of his actions, his choices and most of all how he has to deal with people (kids and adults). He is a good kid. He has his ups and downs but the important thing is to let him be who he is.
Being a mother is so much rewarding. Lots of loving wet kisses. He just comes up to me and hugs me and says " I love you so much,Mama". He hugs and kisses me anywhere, anytime he feels like it. He hugs .kisses and thanks me for anything at all. From a delicious meal I prepared or a piece of chocolate I give, or a small token of any sort or even just to let him play a computer game (don't get me wrong,he doesn't bribe me because he has his own game console. I let him play at my computer). He's an adorable kid, not because he's my son but if you meet him,you'll see. So you see, motherhood is a very joyous blessing.
